Hey y’all! I’m so excited to have a blog now! My goal is to post every day, but we’ll see how that goes with a busy toddler. All you moms out there know what I’m talking about!
I was just replying to some comments on my blog and I had to re-read the same sentence a few times because in the matter of 10 minutes I had to change a diaper, get a snack for G, put on a movie for him, tell him that I was happy (he always asks if I’m happy), and find his Lightning McQueen car with the red tires. Not one of the other McQueen cars that he has because they don’t have red tires and the red tires are pretty important to a 2 year old.
I also had to feed the fish and feed the stray cat that we’ve kind of taken in but lives in the backyard right now. Whew.
I was just thinking about how much easier life was when I was writing my binge eating ebook. I had my own office, could close the door and be left alone to write and collect my feelings. My biggest distraction was probably getting up to go to the bathroom. Life was fairly easy then. I didn’t really have anyone to worry about but myself. I had my husband (boyfriend, at the time) there, but he worked on his stuff and I worked on my stuff. We had a good thing going.
Now it’s a balancing act between going to the grocery store, going to playdates, doing the dishes, cooking dinner, doing the laundry, bathing a toddler, trying to negotiate diaper changes with a toddler, taking care of myself, and trying to find five minutes to myself. Shoot, I’d be happy if I could just go to the bathroom alone! Ha!
Not that I would trade this life for anything, but you know what I mean. Life just gets busy. Things get in the way and excuses are made for everything. Big things, little things, it’s all the same. It becomes so much easier to put everything on the back burner and do what’s easy and comfortable for you, instead of trying to change.
No one wants to be trapped by binge eating disorder. Everyone would like to be free of it, but it takes time. You combine something that takes time with life’s distractions and it becomes hard to stay on track. Something always gets in the way. Or you have a rough day at work or with the kids and you think to yourself “I’ll just give in this one time and start fresh tomorrow”. I said those words to myself many times when bingeing. It’s just easier and almost gives you a free pass to continue with giving into your distraction because you’ll start fresh tomorrow. You won’t give in to food tomorrow. You will just be bad this one time. Tomorrow will be different.
But you know as well as I do that that’s not true.
That next day becomes just like the day before and so on and so on. It’s so easy to slip and stay down instead of pulling yourself back up. It’s so, so easy. After all, you almost kind of expect to fail so you are just proving yourself right.
But the thing is, you don’t have to fail. You don’t have to be scared. You pick yourself right back up, face your fears, and deal with them one at a time. Start small. Start believing in yourself. Nothing big happens immediately; everything takes small changes.
Always remember what you want your future to be. What you want your outcome with binge eating to be. Keep your goals in front of you. Try to remain focused and not overwhelm yourself with many changes. You can do it. Life gets tough, but you don’t have to let it get you down.
I hope you all have a great day today! I’m off to put my sick toddler down for a nap. Yay for quiet time!