I don’t know if any of y’all are The Biggest Loser fans, but I sure am. The episode that just aired on April 10, 2012 really reminded me of how far I have come. It was makeover week and the contestants got to meet Michelle Obama at the White House. It was a pretty amazing episode.
One of the contestants, Chris, started to miss her husband and she called home to talk to him. He told her that he missed her and wanted her to come home. He told her that there was no “substitute for his wife”. While he was speaking from his heart, I wish he had kept some of his feelings to himself.
It felt like Chris felt guilty for being away for so long and sad because she missed her husband. So what did she do? She slipped back to her old ways once again. She turned to food to comfort her feelings. She was crying and felt like binge eating was the only thing that could make her feel better.
And she began to binge eat.
It was a weird moment to watch for me. I mean, I know what I used to eat when I binged and I know how I felt, but to see someone with such raw emotion on television was almost surreal.
- To see someone lose so much control.
- To know what it feels like to shut down your whole body and brain so that you don’t let yourself feel what you should be feeling.
- To binge eat to numb yourself.
- To completely spin out of control in a scary downward spinal.
It was a lot to watch for binge eaters, past and present alike.
I felt so bad for Chris. I wish her husband responded to her phone call with a little more support. My heart was breaking for her not to do the inevitable. I was pissed at her husband. She needed support and reassurance that she needed to be at the ranch (or Washington D.C. this week) and she didn’t get it.
When Bob realized that something was different in Chris at the gym, they had a heart-to-heart. Bob asked Chris how she felt after bingeing and she said, “Lousy”. Truer words have never been spoken.
Bob told her to use this opportunity to learn from her mistakes instead of letting them reinforce negative thoughts about her. I just love him!
Bob told Chris that she needed to get healthy for her, no one else. He really opened her eyes because she turned back into the Chris that worked hard again at the gym… although, the damage had been done weight-wise because she gained two pounds and was sent home from the ranch.
So, what’s my point in recapping this episode of The Biggest Loser?
To show you that no one is perfect. There were times when I slipped and gave into the binge eating monster. Chris slipped and binged while on The Biggest Loser. And the reality is that you might too. That’s not what’s important though.
What’s important is what you do after you slip. Do you start self-defeating thoughts about yourself? Do you just keep spiraling down out of control? Or do you realize that it’s okay and pick yourself back up?
Forgive yourself and learn from your mistakes.
Figure out what caused you to binge eat and do something different next time. Go for a walk. Get out of the house. Write in your journal. Talk to a friend about what you are feeling. Go for a drive.
Just do something different so that you have a more positive outcome. Remember, while bingeing might make you feel better temporary (for like 2 minutes), it won’t solve anything and you will feel lousy in the end. Regain control so that you can feel proud that you beat a binge and start focusing on all of the positives in your life.
Remember your past does not have to be your future.